Hari Hari Gue… :)

i am having my breakkkkk… break break break from the working world! so i just quit my job last week, sold hot dogs on my birthday for 8 hours (profit rm90), had wonderful bday dinner (3 salted egg crabs! yummy!!!) and now back in singapore with my parents.

i am back to my old fav job next week, starting job with cimb. bought a white dress to celebrate my new job… my parents are in town and i always wonder why they are so much in rush and hectic when they are travelling.. i miss them when they are not around, but they come to visit… i’d go mad following them!

1 1/2 hours to go before we leave to melaka… huhhhhh~

so what am i doing at 1.25am in the morning? well, today is a historical day because malaysia raised up their gas price, almost 50% more than yesterday’s price. effective immediately. but i cant be bothered cos i dont drive after all

how is my life in kl after i quit my job in singapore and moved to KL to live permanently, got married in march and worked one week right after wedding day??

sad to say, i just tendered my resignation to the company and my last day will be just exactly a day before my birthday. a good excuse to go out and celebrate then! i dunno… things just dont work for me in the company. 1st of all, i dunno what i am supposed to do. i have my boss throwing me alone into a project which i have no clue how is this marketing research thingy working. I am NEW remember??? even if you trust me to do it, i think there’s no way i can figure it what am i supposed to do. Like creating P&L, drafting questionnaires, who to contact and should not be contacted, and others… it is a BIG challenge for me and i finally realised my brain has never been trained to be critical and creative from my previous work experience.( no wonder i am getting really dumb now! my previous jobs are really operational and i have nothing to think about except chasing cut off time and BS-ing customers) I think Marketing Research is absolutely a great job for those who wants analytical and presentation skills. I am bit sad that it just didnt work out for me. And with the company’s piling up receipts to file, gosh that just makes my day even worse cos it was so messy. I just wished that they didnt have to mix my job as admin and doing market rsearch at the same time! well,i’m leaving the job soon and i am hoping my new workplace makes me happier (back to the old same shit kinda job but with really GOOD benefits).

i’ve been putting on lotsa of weight to my body. i am so plump now and it’s all because of indulging too much on married life. I was trying my purple dress that i wore for my pre-wed photo cos Zenfany wedding is coming this weekend and i was soooooo embarrassed to find out i cant even fit in! omg… this is super damn serious! i eat and sleep like a pig. ppl said if i gain weight after married, that is a good sign that my in laws really take care of me. hahahaa… i just signed up for kickboxing class and will make a good use of it. heard that shape is going to hold its first run in malaysia this august. i am aiming to keep fit for 5km run(if they have it.. otherwise i dunno if i can breathe well to 10 km!! prob end up like miss piggy lying on the floor)

birthday is coming soon and i’ve made plans for the day. I am going to open a stall at Hartamas Family Fair selling hot dogs/pisang bakar keju(yummy!!!)… not fancying typical chinese dinner to celebrate cos this is what keagan’s family been doing so i am getting good with chinese menu now. hopefully tin, mom and dad will be around by that time so we can celebrate together.

btw, we have not gone for our honeymoon yet.. i dunno when is that going to be..but it better be this year or i am gonna be very upset

1:45am now.. off to bed

This song is really beautiful, I’ve just gotta share it with everyone. My wedding march song The first time i heard it, I was so touched… the song lyrics are just like a wedding vow. I am sure all the bride-to-be will be touch with this song…. Please enjoy…

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3VXNNCBvzQE&feature=related

Two Words — composed by Louie Ocampo, lyrics by Freddie Santos

In a while, in a word,
Every moment now returns.
For a while, seen or heard,
How each memory softly burns.
Facing you who brings me new tomorrows,
I thank God for yesterdays,
How they led me to this very hour,
How they led me to this place…

Every touch, every smile,
You have given me in care.
Keep in heart, always I’ll,
Now be treasuring everywhere.
And if life should come to just one question,
Do I hold this moment true?
No trace of sadness,
Always with gladness…
‘I DO…’

(instrumental)

Now a song that speaks of now and ever,
Beckons me to someone new,
Unexpected, unexplored, unseen,
Filled with promise coming through.
In a while, in a word,
You and I forever change,
Love so clear, never blurred,
Has me feeling wondrous, strange,
And if life should come to just one question,
Do I face each moment true?
No trace of sadness, always with gladness,
‘I DO…’

Never with sadness…
Always with gladness…
‘I…DO….’

irritatingly pissed!!! i greeted an old friend and what i got is ignorant.. i know the message was received.. ppl change, either they be  nice to u or they just fuck u up.. wat da hell with this attitude… just because ur social life and network of friends change, that doesnt mean u forgot where u come from! what a waste of time.. S-hole!!!

a few more weeks to stay in singapore.. the workload is abit up compared to the last few months, but i feel really happy that i had a great time here. been hanging out alot with yus and my sis. I will miss my family and my friends alot. No more 6 hours bus journey to go back KL.. the tiring bus trip that has always made me counted down every minutes and hours :D. it is soon over!!!!!

I am still browsing for jobs in Malaysia,hoping that there’s a chance to go back to the corporate world for my foreigner status. I’m keeping my fingers crossed to hear my proposal to be granted a transfer to AA Malaysia is on green light. PUSH = pray until something happens, this quote that has been sitting comfortably in my sister’s bathroom for years and now i remember it!

tight schedule soon, my wed photoshoot is coming on september. i’m worried about my dad, he has been kinda unhealthy a few weeks ago. it is always wise to eat and exercise healthy, too bad we as human have always to face all the temptations everyday. i believe that u live to indulge in all the good things that have been all surrounding you. it is not to suffer to think that they are harm to u. remember that we only live once right?

i was discussing the religion topic a few days ago with a couple of friends. it was awkward, i used to be a person who would go to church either to meet friends or to worship god. nowadays, i decided that it is probably just not me anymore. it is not something that could answer my questions. i love the teachings, not that i hate the society. i just haven’t found the answers to many thigns that happen to this world. i am not saying that there’s certainly one particular belief that could give u the answer to all those things that has been bothering ur mind. u just feel confused and u do not know what is true and wrong anymore. for me, a religion could be abused by human’s interpretation and thinking.

i am back to my root now, as i figure it out as an asian it is probably best to  understand why, how, and what have been driving the purpose and journey of my life.

if westernization can be adopted well by the asians, y is it that we do not try harder to let the west understand and adopt our culture and our way of thinking? yes it’s great to see that the sushi bars and chinatowns are taking over the world. But look at how many mcdonalds and kfc around every 10 km of this world?

sooner or later, we will all be saying " go west"

love is..

an overwhelming feeling that could hardly be expressed with words. i’m gonna give u my biggest hug when i see u this friday. love u, i’ll be home soon.

i am obsessed with beyonce’s voice in this song. i loved the story of the song and ever since i heard the song for the first time that words ‘to the left.. to the left..’ just kept playing on my head.

not much going on lately. it’s been quite a boring time in singapore. keagan came last week with mother in law. We went to st.james at night and introduced him to some of the indons that I met in singapore.

We have signed up for a wedding package in KL to take our pictures in Port Dickson and KL. I really wanted to use Indonesian photographers with my homie country backdrop for all my pictures, but really they are too pricey. I once received the pricing quote from a good photographer based in Bali called Widi from the photo factory. He charged like USD 980 for 8 hours photo session in bali w/o make up and dresses. But looking at his quality of shots taken for wedding, he is really outstanding. He has been awarded as an international wedding photographer so we have no doubt by looking from his portfolio. Anyway, i passed that option cos I think it’s just too pricey altho I love his pictures alot.

I wanna go home on early June to see my parents at home cos I should really go back more often. Singapore and Jakarta is so much closer comparing States or Europe to Jakarta. There’s no reason to say I dont feel like going home cos Jakarta is so much so much closer now. Thinking about it, I have been away from home for almost 9 years. It was sad to think that I did not spend so much time with my parents thru all this time and living overseas nomadically have been normal. It is great to be re-united with my sisters again cos i have started to feel a bit homesick. I did propose to Keagan the idea of moving to HK or just to move back to Jakarta. Just to live somewhere together the two of us getting to know new people or just to be closer to home.

anyways.. i am putting on weight now.. after the rom party i have been skipping many of my classes and gym. i have been eating and snacking like a crazy pig.. my muscles all sore and i feel so tired after half an hour of workout. i have never been fit but it’s good to realize i can do something to make me feel good about myself. I dont have to be slim, i just need to able to kick some asses! hahaha…

ABN’s blood drive and amazing race coming on may. some were asking me why am i joining such NO VALUE ADDED activities. You’re helping people for blood drive. you’d never know if you’d be one of those ppl who actually need blood from other people. I know how it feels cos I have seen ppl facing such a situation before. About amazing race, the team will be all kids and I am looking forward to hang out with them cos it will be AWESOME! I will be running, jumping, hopping on and off the buses and trains to go around singapore with them. Just like a nanny.. It is definitely gonna be FUN!

To OU and I love Norman so….

http://hub.ou.edu/articles/article.php?item_id=2086317681&section_id=1774511018

wreading the babylon for the second time now! the first time was for my financial planning class EXAM… i wonder why did my US degree end me up at this sucker job as SRM? SRM = service relationship manager…or saboedby rm?? hehehe… inc. service photocopy machine, service fax machine.. service the computer and phone. actually some of them are  pretty dumb work.. i am getting stupid sooner or later.

i’m back in singapore after a fast getaway together (plus all the fellas coming with us, 16 in total so it wasn’t really a pre-honeymoon!) we flew to cambodia for a weekend getaway. dropped by at siam reap to say hi to angkor wat and elephants then went to pnomph penh to see the city life on a tut-tut-cab. things r cheap in pnomph penh. ken and goh are really funny.. ken was such a joker, think he’ll have a hard time to be serious with a woman! lol.. the men had fried tarantula on the way to pnomph penh. that was so gross, i tried chewing its feet.. it was salty and gluey. i think grasshopper ( i had this in kunming) tastes alot better, except that it got stuck in between my teeth when i chew them. euww…??? or yummy..?? hahaha.. gamble a lil bit on the BIG SMALL table at NAGA casino (largest in pnomph penh) and lost USD12. i decided that gambling is really not my type kinda game except for mahjong! i bought a few 4Ds no thru all this time and yet none of them has ever came out!!! not even the 10 mio TOTO even tho i bought like $92 dollar diff kinda no together with my colleagues. gambling is really a matter of luck! don’t play play hor…

most of the things are valued by USD in cambodia so it wasnt so cheap. things like coke would cost u at least a dollar unless u did try to bargain a bit then u’ll get 2 cokes for a dollar. had manicure and pedicure for each 3 bucks.. slightly cheaper than jakarta, but it’s CHEAP!! pnomph penh has the same picture like jakarta except that it is smaller.

keagan called… write more later!!